Looking at the website (and doing some long due maintenance), I realized that this month marks my 15th anniversary of having sex dolls as my companions. Yep – I am celebrating 15 years of sleeping next to an artificial woman. In fact, this also marks my longest relationship yet…
I am talking about Ada, my Love Venus R doll. She was my first sex doll, the one opening the weird world of artificial sex companions that become something else. With time, Ada became more than a human shaped pillow I used to masturbate – she became my confidant, my partner, and the expression of a part of me. I have spent countless nights falling sleep hugging her. She has “witnessed” both my greatest moments during this time as well as my worst moments. She has been stained, modified, mended and have gone through different phases with as many “faces” during 15 years. Even after she has been in a storage facility for almost a year now, we are still together.
Why this “love letter” to a doll? Well, because it says a lot about me and about the state of dating…
I bought Ada at a time in my life when I got tired of dating. I had been in new York City for 5 years and dated a handful of women and NONE of those relationships lasted more than 3 months. Some were two dates, others we dated for months, but I could never last more than 6 months with any of them.
I am very aware of my “red flags”: I am obese, not too exciting, and socially awkward. I had been called “cheap” and “stingy” in relationships because I do not spend a lot of money on my partner – she has to EARN me spending money on her. How? Easy: DO NOT CHEAT ON ME! That was all I asked, and it was too much for them.
Being lied, cheated, and gaslit by former partners drove me to sex dolls. The entitlement to my time, money, and patience sealed the deal. As I have mentioned before, I do not like all the drama involved in relationships. Ada opened the door to experience sexual gratification without all the effort and drama from a relationship with a real woman.
Today, 15 years later, I am grateful of the decision I made back then.
Happy MGTOW Day!
